From Transient to Perpetual - Making a Home for Myself

3 weeks of couch surfing and I am #spent. I have NO idea how I went for nearly 6 months on my US tour -

Abraham-Hicks always says that being exposed to contrast (transient vs perpetual in this case) helps you to clearly define your desire and live on the cutting edge of creation. Well - I am READY to have a home. A real home.

This month is the two year anniversary of when I left LA. Can you believe it?

I never imagined that I would be gone so long. But, my desire to have a home here is growing every day. Here is what I see:

- A house in the Culver City/Mara Vista area
- A yard and garden where I can work year round in the sunshine creating
- Endless parking for myself and guests
- Big, shady trees lining the street
- Freedom to paint or alter whatever I feel creatively to make it my own
- Amazing neighbors who love to BBQ
- Access to a pool within two blocks
- A beautiful main living space where my guests and family feel welcome
- A space for my band to rehearse with grace and ease
- Freedom to sing and play acoustic at all hours
- 1 mile or less from Trader Joe’s
- Option to buy

Watch out world - this girl is making a home.

<3



Times of transition are always a trip to me. Moving across the world is literally like being sucked into the center of the earth and plopped out the other side. It feels like there is no frame of reference - no large similarity - it&#8217;s just a different world.I tend to be very sensitive whenever I come home. I get social anxiety and tend not to see very many people. I guess 8 months of social over-stimiluation will do that. But, I also question who I am here. I question what my role is here - or rather what I want my role to be.I do feel the need to take a stronger place in my community. I feel the need to bring my different communities together in Los Angeles. I&#8217;ve always wanted to feel like I belonged somewhere and have a group of friends that are all close to each other like the 90&#8217;s sitcom &#8220;Friends.&#8221; But, does that exist in a place where my closest friends are at the opposite ends of this 69 square mile dream mecca? I don&#8217;t know - and the truth is I haven&#8217;t stayed in one place long enough to find out.I do love LA  - I am sure you are my home. I suppose that is why I am excited to have my own family - to finally feel grounded here.

Times of transition are always a trip to me. 

Moving across the world is literally like being sucked into the center of the earth and plopped out the other side. It feels like there is no frame of reference - no large similarity - it’s just a different world.

I tend to be very sensitive whenever I come home. I get social anxiety and tend not to see very many people. I guess 8 months of social over-stimiluation will do that. But, I also question who I am here. I question what my role is here - or rather what I want my role to be.

I do feel the need to take a stronger place in my community. I feel the need to bring my different communities together in Los Angeles. I’ve always wanted to feel like I belonged somewhere and have a group of friends that are all close to each other like the 90’s sitcom “Friends.” 

But, does that exist in a place where my closest friends are at the opposite ends of this 69 square mile dream mecca? I don’t know - and the truth is I haven’t stayed in one place long enough to find out.

I do love LA  - I am sure you are my home. I suppose that is why I am excited to have my own family - to finally feel grounded here.

I’m fully overwhelmed -

I haven’t felt this much love all at one time - perhaps my entire life.

This last week has truly revealed so much genuine love and appreciation from my dearest in Macau.

Friend after friend looked me directly in my eyes and told me they love me and BLESSED me with their vision of my successful life!

You have all given me so much love and taken your time and energy to make sure you were there for me - supporting me and letting me know I will be missed.

I can’t thank you enough for who you are to me.

I can’t stop crying thinking about leaving my biggest support system - Soul Republic. I love you so much brothers and sister. You have taken me as I am - day and night for 8 months - blessed my music with your souls and given me the gift of family.

And let it be known that MGM staff and management (in all departments) TAKES CARE of their people and CARES. I’m so grateful to have had FULL support on every single occasion.

Last but not least - our fans and dear friends - we don’t say it often enough - you are so special to us - and you make our daily lives worth it to see you smile. THANK YOU.